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I've been a 4rd old kid doing idk what ^^ lool
I guess its a loss but well... I cant think of a reason why someone should kill him/herself so yeh...

I think it was murder! But then again, is there proof?

And for the question!

I was 4 and I honostly think I was outside with my family playing around.

Unlike most of you I was a teenager at the time he died, and yes a shirt-wearing, CD-flogging, lyrics screeching fan, and yes I remember the news rocked the music community and how so many fans held a candle light vigil outside his home that night and all around the world, and so on. I remember the hype itself, I remember the theories flying around about Courtney's involvement, I remember the press practically foaming at the mouth about whole thing - It was sad really. Yes he had a history of depression (it was the Seattle 'grunge' scene, everyone was moody and pessimistic at the time, it was "in" to be emotionally out of it), a history of drug abuse, and he also had an 'image' to live up to. He had an on-again, off-again relationship with Courtney that only really settled down (as much as it was ever going to) after Frances Bean came along. What Kurt did for music, especially in Udub (and that surrounding area) was unprecedented. Though bands like Soundgarden, Green River, Mudhoney, Mother Love Bone, Temple of the Dog, Pearl Jam and so on were relatively known it was Nirvana (or Kurt's death) that really focussed the spotlight on what was arguably just another music 'phase.' (Nothing enhances one's career like a little death, does it? [/sarcasm]) Teenagers had a role model of sorts, and when he died they, being we, were left lamenting on what could have been. Several chose to take their own lives too, several carved Kurt's name into their bodies as a mark of 'respect' (I remember seeing that on TV), and many of us just listened to the music with a new appreciation. Sure we've all grown up now and arguably moved on, and yes it was tragic, but when you're young and still finding your place in the world the death of an icon can be a very big thing.

Personally now looking back through adult eyes I can appreciate the music and the man for what they were because I lived it then. But for people who use Kurt's death as a mantle for their own suffering, or to benefit from, or to ridicule, I find appalling. Aside from the hype and drugs and even the music he was a troubled man yes but he was still just a man. He made a tragic mistake - and I don't think anyone else pulled the trigger except him. Suicide is arguably the only way out for someone who feels so isolated and in pain as he was (read his lyrics and you'll understand). Kurt was a victim in part of his own demons. Yes life and choice and circumstance play a part, but ultimately the choice was his. Fame thrust a spotlight on him that he couldn't deal with, for whatever reason. His death was sad for us yes, but sadder still for his daughter I think.

Hmph.  What was so special about Kurt Cobain?  I'm sorry that he died the way he did, but there are millions out there who die much more horrifically who're not recognised.

Why don't you wear a t-shirt for them?